That’s what I feel like as a leader most of the time. So, it was time to re-name the blogg-o-la, for at least a day.
I have been called a control freak, and yes, that would be the case sometimes. Other times I have been called an absent leader and yes, that would be the case sometimes as well. [remember you can't win for losing in leadership, so stop trying. it KILLED me and still does when I try to people please...]
This is my heart’s desire, contrary to popular opinion sometimes from critics, staff, friends, strangers, family, yada, yada, yada:
TO LET THE HOLY SPIRIT WORK THROUGH ME TO SEE AS MANY PEOPLE DETOURED FROM HELL AS POSSIBLE. And while alive on earth, to help BELIEVERS CONTINUALLY GROW IN CHRIST until we meet our SAVIOR face to face.
That’s why I do what I do [period]. Why the Hades else would you put yourself or your family through this? [if that makes no sense to you, you are not a pastor or church planter, so skip on...]
Have I tried to “control” the work of the spirit? Of course I have. I’m human and I think I know best.
But, one of the most freeing lessons I have ever learned [am learning] was/is this:
THAT YOU CAN’T CONTROL A MOVE OF GOD, so do your best to MANAGE [herd] the CHAOS and get out of the way.
Here’s where I think I am today, and how I might be a better chaos herder than I was yesterday:
MOVE OF GOD + GODLY LEADERSHIP + ABUNDANT LOVE = ORGANIZED? CHAOS [Acts 2 and beyond]. [of course, there are a hundred other dynamics to put into the equation so don't comment the crap out of this ie: prayer, scripture, obedience, etc., but these are the biggies when I read what the apostles did].
A radical MOVE of God, shaped by GODLY leadership, that lives a life of ABUNDANT love [not superficial love, and after all, summed up: God is LOVE, so maybe we should too], and see it freaking explode in JESUS NAME.
This is what happened throughout Scripture. And I desire that: let’s herd some SPIRITUAL CHAOS TOGETHER.